One Room, Four Guys
drsilverfish:

Muriel Rukeyser, the US poet Metatron quotes to Cas near the end of “Metafiction” 9x18; “The universe is made of stories, not of atoms” (from her poem “The Speed of Darkness”, 1968) is an odd choice for the ex-scribe of God.
Sure, we know Metatron loves stories, that he hid himself away on earth buried in books until Sam and Dean caught up to him in “The Great Escapist” 8x21.
But politically speaking, he’s an autocrat, whereas Rukeyser was committed to democratic social justice.
An essay on her life can be found here: http://www.cstone.net/~poems/essahack.htm  
Dean chose the alias Special Agent Bolan during his interrogation of Aaron (his “gay thing”) in “Everybody Hates Hitler” 8x13, a reference to Marc Bolan the T-Rex singer. This is an instance of a reference to Dean’s bisexuality in the subtext, as Bolan is known to have been bisexual.
Muriel Rukeyser (1913-1980) was also bisexual - see here for more information http://www.glbtq.com/literature/rukeyser_m.html . So in “Metafiction” the subtext links Castiel to a bisexual artist at his moment of “revelation”, when Metatron gifts him with the ability to understand cultural references.
This precedes Metatron’s speech to Gadreel: ”My job is to set up interesting characters and see where they lead me. The by-product of having well-drawn characters is…they may surprise you.”
None of which means Dean or Castiel are eventually going to be “outed” in the SPN text, but it sure is yet another instance of how invested many on the SPN creative team are in suggesting neither of them are straight on a recurrent basis.      

drsilverfish:

Muriel Rukeyser, the US poet Metatron quotes to Cas near the end of “Metafiction” 9x18; “The universe is made of stories, not of atoms” (from her poem “The Speed of Darkness”, 1968) is an odd choice for the ex-scribe of God.

Sure, we know Metatron loves stories, that he hid himself away on earth buried in books until Sam and Dean caught up to him in “The Great Escapist” 8x21.

But politically speaking, he’s an autocrat, whereas Rukeyser was committed to democratic social justice.

An essay on her life can be found here: http://www.cstone.net/~poems/essahack.htm  

Dean chose the alias Special Agent Bolan during his interrogation of Aaron (his “gay thing”) in “Everybody Hates Hitler” 8x13, a reference to Marc Bolan the T-Rex singer. This is an instance of a reference to Dean’s bisexuality in the subtext, as Bolan is known to have been bisexual.

Muriel Rukeyser (1913-1980) was also bisexual - see here for more information http://www.glbtq.com/literature/rukeyser_m.html . So in “Metafiction” the subtext links Castiel to a bisexual artist at his moment of “revelation”, when Metatron gifts him with the ability to understand cultural references.

This precedes Metatron’s speech to Gadreel: ”My job is to set up interesting characters and see where they lead me. The by-product of having well-drawn characters is…they may surprise you.”

None of which means Dean or Castiel are eventually going to be “outed” in the SPN text, but it sure is yet another instance of how invested many on the SPN creative team are in suggesting neither of them are straight on a recurrent basis.      

Though my eyes could see, I still was a blind man…

larinah:

minorkeepsakes:

larinah:

First off, thanks to littlehollyleaf for reminding me a while ago about the lyrics to Supernatural’s sort of adopted theme song.  There have been so many references to variations on blindness and seeing this season that I’m not even going to try to link to them all.  I’d have to link to half of what I’ve written and a lot of what other people have written as well.  Let’s just say that the above lyric to Carry On Wayward Son pretty much says it all.

And Alex, Annie, Alexis, Ann really drove the point home.  This episode had so many instances of warnings for people to “see” what is right there. 

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Such an important theme this week! All that blurred vision! And I love your interpretation of Dean’s line “Look at me, Bitch.” I don’t think Dean’s really aware of it, but there’s definitely some dramatic irony happening. Sam needs to look harder at what’s happening to Dean, for sure. And that cabin is definitely a metaphor for all kinds of things.

Something else that occurred to me as I was reading this, was how we were reminded of how Vampires were thought to be extinct up until recently, and learned that people like Annie were used as bait to keep them hidden. And of course lures and bait always look like something they’re not. A fish sees dinner, and instead becomes dinner.

Sometimes we see what we want to see. The old guy in the bar sees a pretty girl coming on to him, because that’s what he wants. Mama vamp sees here own lost child. Jodi sees Annie as an innocent because that’s what she wants to see. And perhaps Sam accepts Dean’s explanation for his behaviour because he wants to believe that Dean will be okay. Maybe a part of him doesn’t want to see the truth.

In the end Annie breaks free of her role as “bait”, as a tool which serves to deceive others, and takes action based on what she she wants and needs for herself. She’s reached a breaking point with her vamp “family” and realized that she really isn’t a monster, that she has a conscience and must act on it in order to be true to herself. She’s seeing herself clearly for the first time. That’s what Dean needs to do more than anything, right now, but I don’t think he’s reached his breaking point yet.

Oooo.  There was a fishing pole leaning up against the door to Jody’s cabin, but I didn’t take a screencap of it.  And I gotta go pick up my kid from school now, so I can’t get it.  But I do think there was a lot to the bait and lure stuff, like you say.

Also, they were standing between a school bus and a cattle car (I don’t know the right name for that) right before they went into the nest.  Sort of like, “Pay attention and learn, or be led off to slaughter”.

mttyshealy:

LETS PLAY THE “TYPE THESE WORDS IN YOU R TAG BOX AND POST THE FIRST AUTOMATIC TAG THAT COMES UP” GAME: DIRTY WORD ADDITION OK

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  • dick
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Ozark Mountain Daredevils – If You Wanna Get to Heaven

I never read it in a book
I never saw it on a show
But I heard it in the alley
On a weird radio
If you want a drink of water
You got to get it from a well
If you want to get to heaven
You got to raise a little hell


I never felt it in my feet
I never felt it in my soul
But I heard it the alley
Now it’s in my rock and roll
If you want to know a secret
You got to promise not to tell
If you want to get to heaven
You got to raise a little hell

{Instrumental}

I never thought it’d be so easy
I never thought it’d be so fun
But I heard it in the alley
Now I got it on the run
If you want to see an angel
You got to find it where it fell
If you want to get to heaven
You got to raise a little hell

{Instrumental}

If you want to get to heaven
If you want to get to heaven
If you want to get to heaven
If you want to get to heaven

Let’s talk about this song! (The music is always significant.)

"But I heard it in the alley, on a weird radio."

"If you want a drink of water, you got to get it from a well." The well is used a lot in Christian symbolism. In particular, the well, the living, flowing water, is Jesus and salvation. This season, Cas has been the Christ figure. (Usually, it’s Dean.)

"If you want to get to heaven, you’ve got to raise a little hell."

Talk to me, tell me what you think of this sentence in the context of seasons 4-5, in the context of the angels falling, of Metatron and Abaddon, of the Mark of Cain, of Destiel. Dean’s acceptance of the Mark, his casual damnation of himself, does it mean that he did to redeem himself? Or is the heaven in question the euphemistic one, referring just to death? Does it mean that the demon civil war is necessary to bring the angels back home?

"I never felt it in my feet, I never felt it in my soul."

This is Dean’s journey. While the feet in question might be the biblical euphemism for genitals (look it up!), I think they’re more closely metaphorical. The Winchesters have been nomadic all their lives, but Dean’s never felt the heavenly purpose. He does good, yes, he saves lives, but he does it not for some greater good, but for the human connections, and to ease the guilt that’s always eating at him for not being good enough. He never felt he was the Righteous Man of prophecy in his soul.

"But I heard it in the alley, now it’s in my rock and roll."

He heard it in the alley. He got the message. He was worth saving, and that was when he knew. And this season is when that knowledge has slipped from him.

"If you want to know a secret, you’ve got to promise not to tell."

"I never thought it’d be so easy."

"That’s it. Good. Next time, it’ll be easier. You’ll get used to the feelings, even welcome them."

"I never thought it’d be so fun."

(My screencaps of that dialogue.)

"But I heard it in the alley, now I’ve got it on the run."

"If you want to see an angel, you’ve got to find it where it fell."

Do I even need to go there? ;-)

The music turned out to be very Destiel this episode, too.

My screencaps, blogging for reference.

Sorry for Not Putting on a Hair Shirt, or How 9x19 Shows Dean’s Atonement is a Long Way off

sleepsintheimpala:

Of all the things said in Alex Annie Alexis Anne, in the context of this episode and Dean’s current character arc, this little sentence is the one that really got to me.

In religious practice, a cilice, or hair shirt is worn as a sign of atonement and penance for ones sins with the basic idea behind it that if a human repents now, they will go to Heaven rather than Hell. Commonly made of burlap or goat’s hair, it was worn underneath regular clothing. The effect of it was raw-rubbed skin, soreness, or even in extreme cases open wounds.

(x)

So, when referencing it, it’s not just that Dean blithely brushes aside the idea of being sorry for enjoying the vampire kill. It’s that by doing so he brushes aside the idea that he could ever be able to atone for his sins and basically sentences himself to Hell. Which is exactly where he believes he has to go again.

Kevin’s blood is on my hands, and that ain’t ever getting clean. I’ll burn for that. I will.   (9x10 Road Trip)

I would argue that taking on the Mark of Cain was an act of of penance, of self-flagellation with an angry read scar to prove it, but rather than doing this to rid himself of sin, it was to condemn himself to Hell. Dean’s not stupid. While he may have underestimated some of the side-effects of the Mark, taking on the Curse of a Knight of Hell was not just a means to an end to defeat Abaddon. It is a means to send himself back to the Pit.

When it comes to those side-effects, Dean is in fact doing the very opposite of atoning for sins, the very opposite of what a cilice is made for. The act of contrition made by wearing a hair shirt is called “mortification of the flesh”; essentially meaning denying oneself earthly pleasures. Mortification of the flesh can entail anything ranging from a fast to the self-flagellation I mentioned above. Basically the very antithesis of what Dean is currently doing. He is downing liquor by the bucket-load. He is indulging in murder (indulging because he is enjoying it). And not just that, by demanding the vampire looked at him at the moment of death, he is watching the life drain out of him. Not that it was needed, but to emphasise just how awful that was, Jodie had Alex turn away from someone’s life ending. It’s what I imagine psychopaths do…

And Dean, he just doesn’t care, because - as Jensen mentioned - his emotions have become dulled under the Mark’s curse and it is allowing his dark side to come out in full force. So, what we have is a Dean who is much more like Endverse’s 2014!Dean who believes that killing a human suffering from Croatoan is normal.

Plugging some Croat, it’s called commonplace

A Dean who is

all too well schooled in the art of getting to the truth

A Dean that 2009!Dean abhorred.

The closer we get to the finale, the more apparent it is becoming that we are going to leave Dean in a very dark place for summer hiatus. Because something is truly broken inside and it will take more than three episodes to mend it. God, it’s is going to hurt.

lullabelleno:

boyking-chris:

Can we talk about how Sam is starting to sit/perch on chairs and tables like Hallucifer???

I hadn’t noticed this? I’m gonna be watching for it now, though…

You know what? Jody Mills as the tree of life has me ridiculously optimistic for her survival. Because you don’t cut down Yggdrasil until Ragnarök.

I was wrong about Ratatosk, by the way. That should be Dean. ;-)

Metatron’s Endgame: Hell on Earth?

crossroadscastiel:

But I know something they don’t know…the ending. How I get there doesn’t matter, as long as everybody plays their part.

What do we know about Metatron? He was the scribe of God who fled from Heaven after God left. He lived on Earth amongst humans for a very, very long time…thousands of years, maybe more. He had a grudge against Heaven, against the archangels, against Naomi, for causing him to flee out of fear he would be tortured so they could access all the information in his brain. But what does Metatron want exactly? What is his endgame? Does this former scribe truly want to be God? Does he simply want revenge? Or it it more complicated than that?

Lucifer was intent on wiping out mankind, and taking Earth — which he loved — for himself and those loyal to him. I think unlike Lucifer, Metatron isn’t all that interested in what happens to the Earth…

What you brought to His Earth, all the mayhem, the murder. Just the raw, wild invention of God’s naked apes… it was mind-blowing.

He loves stories, but beyond that he loves to be entertained. He has lived amongst humanity, but considers himself above humans in every way. The only true love he seems to have for humans is for the stories they tell. He doesn’t want Earth, he wants Heaven, but I think he knows he can never truly have the Heaven he wants unless all threats there, and on Earth, are eliminated.

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Though my eyes could see, I still was a blind man…

larinah:

First off, thanks to littlehollyleaf for reminding me a while ago about the lyrics to Supernatural’s sort of adopted theme song.  There have been so many references to variations on blindness and seeing this season that I’m not even going to try to link to them all.  I’d have to link to half of what I’ve written and a lot of what other people have written as well.  Let’s just say that the above lyric to Carry On Wayward Son pretty much says it all.

And Alex, Annie, Alexis, Ann really drove the point home.  This episode had so many instances of warnings for people to “see” what is right there. 

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"Vampiric Stockholm Syndrome" Dr Silverfish reviews “Alex, Annie, Alexis, Ann” (Spoilers for SPN 9x19)

drsilverfish:

Berens’ third episode for Supernatural, after “Heaven Can’t Wait” and “Captives”, brought us a dark psychodrama about grief and what it does to you and the people around you, when you bury it deep, let it fester and can’t move on. 

Owing much to the horror genre, the episode played with the hearts of Jody Mills fans, offering us suspense scene after suspense scene in which Jody, alone in a cabin in the woods, nearly got slaughtered by the killers. But Sheriff Mills was the “final girl”, just like Jaime Lee Curtis in Halloween (1978). She survived, and more than that, she found the psycho-dramatic key to freedom for herself and Alex…

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feandra:

savingsammyhuntingdestiel:

feandra:

It’s late and I’m trying to sleep but for some reason my mind doesn’t want to let me. It’s eerily quiet and I keep thinking of the many times Dean must have been lying on his bed like this, unable to calm his thoughts and brimming over with worries.

And so he decides to pray to Cas. Do you ever just stop and think how fucking INTIMATE that is. It’s really hitting me right now… Dean’s laying his heart bare for his angel - he doesn’t even know where he is or if he’s listening. But he can’t help it. It’s as though the praying makes him feel less alone. But there’s so much uncertainty with it too, you know? Is Cas listening in? Does he even care? Will he ever come back? But then I think Cas doesn’t even realize how big a deal this is for Dean.

And I just… can’t with these two.

For Dean, prayer is infinitely personal.  No one has ever been privy to his wants and needs the way he allows himself to be when he prays to Cas.

To angels, prayer is just another form of communication.  It can’t be that much different from background music: if you really pay attention or your favorite song comes on, then you might pick up the lyrics but otherwise it just starts to fade into the background. 

However, how many people would have prayed to Cas in his existance?  Not very many would have known his name to even do so, much less prayed to him every day.  And over the years, Dean’s prayers have become less about crying out for help and more about staying in contact - checking up on Cas, letting him know that he is missed, and reminding him that he is known. 

I bet Cas is looking forward to every little moment he gets to hear Dean’s voice. No matter where he is or what he is doing - Dean praying always gives him a surge of warmth and familiarity. But he doesn’t talk about it, doesn’t acknowledge it in front of Dean because, as you say, Cas is used to the prayers in general. He’s used to the fact that he can’t communicate back. But I also think he’s scared to let on how much it means to him… and maybe he feels guilty over all the times he was unable or unwilling to come and help Dean.

In 9x10 he says: “I came as soon as you called!”

In 9x18 he says: “I miss my wings.”

And, I think, what he means to say is: “For the first time in forever, I wouldn’t leave you alone in your despair. I would drop everything and be at your side immediately if you needed me to. But this time, I can’t - because I don’t have my wings.”

dustydreamsanddirtyscars:

Can we talk about Dean’s expression here for a moment? This is right after him and Sam witness Jody beheading the mother (there is another meta that begs to be written btw about how “the mother” in 9x19 relates to 9x17 and “Abbadon as a ~mother figure”).
For a moment it seems that he cannot believe his eyes and actually looks kind of worried, alarmed and maybe even a little shocked, which is interesting since just minutes ago he killed a vamp in a pretty gruesome way and even demanded him to look into his eyes while doing the kill (which btw massively reminded me of the psychopathic killer in Simon Beckett’s “Whispers of the Dead”, who wanted to capture the moment when a person dies in a photograph) and was completely cold about it, but enjoying it.
Fast forward a couple of minutes from Dean’s dead looking eyes to this scene and the emotions you see flicker over this face. It seems like he truly is blind to his own actions (which might also explain why Dean so despeartely tries to see wipe the mirrors to be able to see himself) and his violence, which might be fitting since larinah just talked about how blindness was a big theme in this episode.

dustydreamsanddirtyscars:

Can we talk about Dean’s expression here for a moment? This is right after him and Sam witness Jody beheading the mother (there is another meta that begs to be written btw about how “the mother” in 9x19 relates to 9x17 and “Abbadon as a ~mother figure”).

For a moment it seems that he cannot believe his eyes and actually looks kind of worried, alarmed and maybe even a little shocked, which is interesting since just minutes ago he killed a vamp in a pretty gruesome way and even demanded him to look into his eyes while doing the kill (which btw massively reminded me of the psychopathic killer in Simon Beckett’s “Whispers of the Dead”, who wanted to capture the moment when a person dies in a photograph) and was completely cold about it, but enjoying it.

Fast forward a couple of minutes from Dean’s dead looking eyes to this scene and the emotions you see flicker over this face. It seems like he truly is blind to his own actions (which might also explain why Dean so despeartely tries to see wipe the mirrors to be able to see himself) and his violence, which might be fitting since larinah just talked about how blindness was a big theme in this episode.

I am weak.

kiriamaya:

kiriamaya:

At least as far as fighting goes.

And I am trying to be okay with that.

Because I’m tired of trying to define myself as strong; I’m tired of constantly fretting over whether I’m being “radical” or “revolutionary” enough.

The truth is, all I really want is to fix my body, make games, and care for my friends and loves and chosen family. If I can help others survive in the process, so much the better, of course; I’ll do whatever I can. But I am not a DPS character, and I need to learn to accept that.

Don’t mind me; I’m just thinking aloud.

Thinking along these lines again tonight. I do, periodically. And I constantly worry that I’m letting folks down for that, even though I’m frequently assured that I’m not.

I can’t be strong in the way (I think) people want me to. I am strong in so many ways, but I’m not a heroine or a badass or anything like that. Like, I’m an activist to the extent that I can be; I just can’t be the tireless super-aggressive kind of activist that I sometimes feel pressured to be. And I need to learn be okay with that.

Am I even making sense?

You are making sense. Activism burnout is a thing. First and foremost, you need to take care of yourself, because you are important. The rest? Eh, the rest will be done sooner or later. Do what you can do in terms of mental and physical health.

I love these new "type these words into your tags box and post the first tag that automatically pops up" thingies, so fun. Let’s do another one:

  • can’t
  • don’t
  • first
  • help
  • please
  • one
  • my
  • will
  • stop
  • get
  • honestly
  • I’m